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Welcome to Emily The Vampire Slayer, my name is Emily (surprised?) & this is my personal webspace that is free for me to say as I like in. You don't agree with my ramblings? That's fine, leave. I'm not out to offend or upset anyone but, like most, I'm very opiniated... that can often get in the way of my desire to be friends with everyone I meet because I won't drop my beliefs for anyone. Why should I? But feel free to take a look around and comment my blogs. Any questions, issues or complaints can be addressed here.
Alfie: It Shouldn't Have Happened
29.07.09
Today my dog died. There, I have finally managed to admit it properly. It's been really difficult; I think part of the problem is what I wrote in the title, there's no two ways about it: it should not have happened. Alfie was not even 3 years old, he was healthy and happy and so very full of life... but this morning my sister left the gate open while he was out in the back garden and he went wandering as dogs will when left with an open gate. My mum dragged me out of bed and asked me to help her go look for him; so she set off in her car to drive round and I went down the snicket by the primary school and all the way to the main road and back up past the new estate and the Lee Brigg club until I came in a full circle to our house. There had been no sign of our Alf. When I got in I rang my Mum and she sounded weird and distant, she said: "Why haven't you been answering the phone?" My first reaction was to be annoyed because she'd sent me out herself to look for him, I told her as much. And then she said, "Em, he's been killed. A bus hit him down the road, they told me it was a mess so I couldn't look but I have his collar." She wasn't crying at this point she just sounded far away.
My mind couldn't grasp it properly at first, I felt spaced out, my head was spinning with "Killed? What? Who's been killed?" Then I pieced together the parts of our conversation: the missing dog, hit by a bus, only a collar. I asked if she was joking, knowing that it was a stupid question but I couldn't believe it. I still can't really. All I can think about is that fact that last night he was there lazy and lolling about on the furniture and now he's just gone. I went into the kitchen earlier today and saw his food bowl in the corner, and his toys on the floor. I wanted to be sick. Ultimately, it was my sister who left the gate open; none of us are mentioning this because she's already really upset but deep down I can't help but think, "Even though I shouldn't say it, she is the one to blame. In the end, if she hadn't left the gate open, my Alfie would still be alive". Thinking about it is giving me a huge headache, I miss my dog... I really miss my dog. God, I even miss the stupid howling he did whenever someone came to the door. I just hope it was quick for him, I really really do.
I need to talk about something else, anything else will do. The holiday I suppose might be a good start, except that the excitement has definitely been dampened by all this today.
But I have started packing and I think I've got most of it done, just left out a few essentials that I couldn't do without until then. I've also (thank God) finally got a working mobile phone of my own, so I won't have to keep borrowing my Mum's... which brings me onto another small matter which I'll talk about later. On holiday, the room formation is going to be a little weird now that my Grandad isn't going. Before, it was going to be me, Jake and him in one room, and my Mum, Dad and Chelsey in the other. However, now, looks like it'll be me and Jake and sometimes Chelsey (she'll basically be alternating), but me and Jake have made great plans for the nighttimes after our parents have gone to bed, if Chelsey's there we'll just have to sneak out but basicaly we're having good fun on this one - no missing out with the old fogies! Ok, this has nothing to do with holidays but I have also just applied for a bunch of fanlistings, which I'm not sure on the sanity of seeing as I will be away for two weeks. Ah, well, I'll have to hope either I get any approvals before I go or that they don't decide to send them out until after I have come back. Internet Cafes in the area we'll be in are looking more and more out of the question. Ok, so onto the mobile subject I dodged around before... there is this amazing new mobile that will soon be available, though the exact release date I'm not sure about, and it's absolutely amazing. It's in the shape of the traditional English red telephone box, and it's called 'London Calling' - how fab is that?! Also, apparently it comes with some ringtones already installed, two of which are 'God Save The Queen' and 'Rule Britannia'. I want it. To say the least, I have added it to my wishlist.
Anyway, my sister has just come in because she can't sleep so I'll have to go, I've tired myself out a bit to be honest. So, back some other time.
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6th October - York University Open Day
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